being honest was never easy –
i didn’t know how to until you
came around showing me how wonderful life could be
if i let my fear escape my mind,
to pay attention to the matter.
chasing ghosts, i knew i loved you,
but that was put to rest when i kept to the right of you.
to not love you out loud is next,
falling comes with consequence but never a plan.
i knew i had to step back when my hands shook,
yearning for something more.
here we are, skin and bone,
with the leaves.
ever changing colours, changing me.
just let me be close,
my head rests on your shoulder,
one.. more.. time.
i got up with bleeding knees,
running off into the night.