I am a firefly so subtle,
catching drifts from the darkness,
finding my light from within.
You captured me in a jar,
and set me free at the time I needed you most.
You are a puppet master,
tugging, guiding my heart strings.
It’s out of control,
I can’t breath.
Gasping ever so violently
for the words to tell you
how much I hate that I love you.
Skin on skin,
the moonlight shines on my backside,
releasing the beauty that I am unable to see.
Am I free yet?
Your finger tips tracing the things I wish I could change.
You said you loved them
and I was stupid enough to believe you.
I fall down.
into the rabbit hole of your soul.
Something sucks the life out of me
everytime you come around
– yet I keep coming back.
I am blinded by your eyes,
not realizing how much better I deserve.
Farther and father,
I come to a set of lights.
Do I go?
Do I stay?
Then I stopped. Neon and all.
Turned around and decided to change.
A miracle if you will.
Time to stand up for all of us too afraid to do anything.
Under the neon lights I decided you were just a dream
that will fade with the rest of the ones that got away.